Beautiful Disaster

Yo. Okay guys, I seriously was gonna think of something either super artsy or super funny to blog about, but I didn't really think of either. So sorry for being super emotionally annoying, again. This girl apparently has gotten super emotional since I left for college, I don't know. It's funny how change itself, can change you. Anyways, I just had a little tid bit to say.

I find it interesting how some people can beautifully display something thats, well, not so beautiful. I guess it would be referred to as a beautiful disaster. (Okay I lied, this is going to be a little artsy guys, I know you're excited.)

I'll start by saying again that I am obsessed with youtube covers. Literally obsessed. Well, a lot of my fave youtube coverists have been covering the song "Pumped Up Kicks" by Foster the People. Today, while listening to one of the covers, I read a comment that someone said and I came to a realization. The comment said, "

"Does anyone actually know what this song is about? Lots of people 

are listening to it and they seem to think it's some fun, light-hearted 

song... when in fact it's about a boy who was abused by his father 

and bullied at his high school by the 'cool' kids with their 'pumped up 

kicks' and is thinking about going on a high school shooting"

Okay so, woah. Isn't it crazy how such a catchy song can send such a deep, disturbing message. I'm actually a sucker for lyrics, but somehow these slipped right past me. Sometimes peoples struggles can be hidden by something else in their life, but that doesn't mean it's not there. Just like the song, you can be distracted by its tune, but when you really listen, it can be filled with so much more depth. So be careful and observant. If i've learned anything while in college, i've learned to be observant. You can learn something completely new about someone from observing them, rather than having an hour long conversation with them. So learn to listen, even when all looks good, we all struggle.

Girl Crush.

Old school with Savannah Outen. Classic.

Rest in the Shadow of My Almighty Presence.

Wow, so I am sitting doing my devotion and this is what it says:

"Expect to encounter adversity in your life, remembering that you live in a deeply fallen world. Stop trying to find a way that circumvents difficulties. The main problem with an easy life is that it masks your need for Me. When you became a Christian, I infused My very Life into you, empowering you to live on a supernatural plane by depending on Me.
Anticipate coming face to face with impossibilities: situations totally beyond your ability to handle. This awareness of your inadequacy is not something you should try to evade. It is precisely where I want you--- the best place to encounter Me in My Glory and Power. When you see armies of problems marching toward you, cry out to Me! Allow Me to fight for you. Watch Me working on your behalf, as you rest in the shadow of My Almighty Presence."

Could my God be anymore awesome? No way! It shocks me how much little things can speak to us. This devotion book is the bomb.com. It's called Jesus Calling. It looks super cheesy on the outside, but the inside is pure gold. Do yourself a favor and go buy it, for real.

Let the Rain

So, it's been a while since I posted, but that's because my life has been crazy. Now, I know I always say that, but this is a whole new wild that I never could have expected. I am officially in college and in a sorority. Crazy, right? Let me answer that for you. Yes, it is. If moving in my very own luxurious dorm wasn't enough, then there was rush. If rush wasn't enough, then there was actually getting in a sorority, And if becoming a cute little Phi Mu wasn't enough, then there is parties. And even if that isn't enough, I now start classes tomorrow. Hectic to say the least. Although my life is completely crazy and sounds super busy, I can't help but think back on my real home, which is not yet Auburn. As much as I love Auburn, I can not say that I am close to being comfortable here. Yes, some of my friends are taking the town by storm, and having the absolute time of their lives (even though we've only been here for a week) but me on the other hand, not so much.

I know it's going to take some getting used too, but this is all a part of me growing up. God has such a plan, and I can't wait to see what he has in store for me! It has to be something beyond my comprehension, something incredibly beautiful and wonderful. I know there will be many bumps in the road, but I'm ready for one heck of a ride. So here I go, forced to be all grown up and thrown into the real world.

And who could describe my feelings more than Sara Bareilles. I swear, she has the soundtrack of my life.

learning experience.

Well, I'm officially one week away from a completely new life, or actually it's less than one week away. Crazy. I have already began reminiscing over my whole life thus far, feeling as though its slipping away and will never come back, although thats not the case.

In this time of me looking back on the past, I have begun to see how much of an adventurous journey I have had. I feel like I have almost been through it all. I've hit some pretty high highs, and have sunk to some extremely low lows. At the same time of going through a lot, I learned a lot.

I've learned that other people are beautiful, and they can inspire you in ways you could never imagine or fathom. I've learned so much about myself from others, much more than I could ever do living in this world alone. I've learned the beauty of grace and faith. I've learned to be passionate. I've learned that some relationships can be stupid. I've learned that some relationships can change your life forever. I've learned that on what seem like perfect days, everything can go wrong.  And I've learned that you have to move on in order to discover who you are.

Life is obviously very meaningful, but do we fully understand all of its meaning. Of course not! Our future could change in this very instant. How crazy is that? But through this I have learned something else very important. I have learned that as scary as our future may seem, God has a plan. A plan so awesome that we most likely could not even begin to think of what it might be. Our God is so big and so great and so ALL KNOWING. He knows every highest high and every lowest low I will have this year as my life changes completely.

Life isn't meant to be comfortable. If it was comfortable, then we wouldn't learn. And God created us to learn. So ready or not, I am going off in a week (or less, as I have stated before) and I could not be more uncomfortable, but at the same time be so excited to learn about people, myself, and my God. It may be bumpy, but I'll make it through, learning something beautiful in the meantime.